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naisulat lang sa notebook.

Ang hirap talaga pasukan ng mga klase na pang hapon, nakakaantok kasi talaga, kahit kumpleto pa tulog mo, dahil nka-aircon ang room. nakakatawa, pag tumingin ka sa paligid, ang pupungay ng mata ng mga tao, mga nagpipigil matulog. Buti pa nga sila nkakapagpigil. yung iba, kanya kanyang strategy sa pagtulog. May mukhang super concentrate na nagsusulat, di naman gumagalaw yung ballpen, paano naka-pose lang pla sya para di kitang tulog sya.

I N T P

Found a site which gives brief descriptions of my personality type. haha.. =]

http://similarminds.com/jung/intp.html

so anyway, It just fascinates me that Every MBTI personality test I took gave me this result though they contain different questions and different scoring schemes. I've read several descriptions of the other 15 MBTI personality types and soon realized that I really am an INTP.

INTP

loner, more interested in intellectual pursuits than relationships or family, wrestles with the meaninglessness of existence, likes esoteric things, disorganized, messy, likes science fiction, can be lonely, observer, private, can't describe feelings easily, detached, likes solitude, not revealing, unemotional, rule breaker, avoidant, familiar with the darkside, skeptical, acts without consulting others, does not think they are weird but others do, socially uncomfortable, abrupt, fantasy prone, does not like happy people, appreciates strangeness, frequently loses things, acts without planning, guarded, not punctual, more likely to support marijuana legalization, not prone to compromise, hard to persuade, relies on mind more than on others, calm.

So, what's your opinion? Do you think I fit these descriptions? please post a comment =]

want to know your MBTI personality type? take this test:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

wanna double check? take another and see if you'll get the same result. I did. =]
http://www.career-test.co.uk/test.php

Rain, Rain, go away!

Ugh! It's raining, if it weren't for the strong winds blowing I would've been out of here!

I decided to answer some kokology stuffs today, for a change. Since I usually use it as an icebreaker when the occasion calls for it and I never really tried to answer them myself. Kokology is the study of kokoro which in Japanese means "mind" or "spirit". It's a bit similar to personality tests but way better.

I prefer the ones written in the book 'cause the people who post it on the net have this annoying habit of cutting sentences.

I'm searching for a site which provides questions I haven't read yet. Oh, found one:
http://www.bukisa.com/articles/54803_kokology-quiz-to-discover-your-true-self

according to it:

BE HONEST TO YOURSELF! BE HONEST TO YOUR ANSWER!DON'T EVER LOOK AT THE ANSWER EXPLANATION IF YOU HAVEN'T FINISHED THE QUIZ!

haha, sure! let's start =]
c, d, c, a, b, a, d, a, a, e, a, b, a, b, d.

okay then.

*reads result*. hmm.

The grammar of some of the sentences was a bit off but so far I can say that I'm satisfied with the outcome. =]

*stomach grumbles* haha, time to eat! =]

99 bottles of beer

99 bottles of beer on the wall, 99 bottles of beer.
Take one down and pass it around, 98 bottles of beer on the wall.


*flashback*

when I accidentaly read the phrase 99 bottles of beer while surfin' the net, It triggered a very vivid memory buried way deep inside my subconcious mind. haha. It was unexpected, really.
here's the scene:
I'm in one of the pc labs, we just finished discussing how to implement loops and He's instructing us to code a program which prints the song 99 bottles of beer. He was, like, "di nyo yun alam?", then started singing... "99 bottles of beer on the wall, 99 bottles of beer.Take one down and pass it around, 98 bottles of beer on the wall.".. haha. iirc, he was wearing a pale yellow polo or something with a similar shade.But, I most especially can remember his smile (that I so love). I can't really describe it. I'm sorry but the smile is just so uniquely his that I find it hard to compare it with anyone else's.

Anyway, I'm loving how our brain works and I'm glad that I actually retained that memory. ;p

longing

I read my blog and realized that I want to post another song which is actually one of my favorites( and also has been in and out of my playlist for 5 years. haha. way longer than far away.)

Here it is: =]

Hanging By A Moment – Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking
Completely incomplete
I’ll take your invitation
You take all of me now…

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There’s nothing else to lose
There’s nothing else to find
There’s nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
Chasing after you….

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

headache.. argh! go away!

waah.. what a stressful week! (Let's not talk about the details.)

now playing: far away - nickelback

This song has been in and out of my playlist for 4 years now (I think). I decided to post it here since obviously, It's one of those songs that I never seem to get tired of. It somehow also reminds me of my orgmate/friend Kuya Rei, who I'm beginning to miss. He graduated this summer and I haven't seen him since then. I remember the first time he caught my attention was when he played this song on his guitar during my first encounter with SS around 2 years ago (orientation). I was,like, Hey! that sounds familiar, where's it coming from?, so I turned and saw him singing. I eventually found out that He's in a band and even liked some of his compositions. In any case, He became one of my closest pals in the org. He's been like an older brother that I never had.

Initial thoughts

*yawns* what time is it? I see.. It's 6 in the morning. oh, w8... hey, someone's already awake... hmm, I hear my mom and dad laughing, I think they're sort of reminiscing the past together. They sound so happy. nice.

Rn xnt zbstzkkx sqhdc sn qdzs sghr? gdgd. deenqs. =]

I went for a walk last night, it really helped me clear my mind a bit. I missed that. Maybe that's why I was all jittery yesterday, I just needed a breath of the cold evening air. I missed the serene ambiance of the empty street, during the night, which I am so used to. I even had the chance to talk to a friend, (neighbor-friends, when was the last time I actually talked to them? 3 months ago? we used to hang and talk for hours every weekend! anyway,), actually he's more like my brothers' friend and he made me share some inexplicable mysteries that I used to read (e.g. Bermuda's triangle, Loch ness, etc.). I had fun, though the conversation didn't last long. I needed some time alone to process things.

I also tried to stargaze. The stars were barely visible. The clouds were obstructing them from my view. I stayed until strangers began to arrive. Turned out that there was a birthday party next door and the celebrator was actually a friend. I went to the nearest computer shop to escape all the commotion, plus they were beginning to get drunk and men started to take a leak on a nearby vacant lot which was just a few feet away from where I was standing.

Surprisingly, the time I spent surfing the net didn't improve my mood at all so I went home feeling defeated. Tried to watch a movie, still had no effect. Around 12MN, I went to bed and drifted straight to dreamland, whew, It's a good thing that I am no longer Insomniac.

I am not pleased with the way I acted the whole weekend. I didn't give a lot of attention to my brothers (so unlike me).I should have followed my instinct, shouldn't have come this weekend. My family didn't deserve to see me in that state.

I'm really really hoping for a better mood this week. Although, It's not apparent to me how that would be possible since I've soo much to do, exams and deadlines are all queued up.

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INTPs are logical, individualistic, reserved, and very curious individuals. They focus on ideas, theories and the explanation of how things work. They are especially adept at discussions and debate. They have the ability to focus intently on a subject. They appreciate and respect intelligence in others.

About the INTP

Expert Quotes & Links

"INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to most anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves." - INTP Profile (TypeLogic) "The INTP is above all a thinker and his inner (private) world is a place governed by a strong sense of logical structure. Every experience is to be rigorously analysed, the task of the INTP's mind is to fit each encountered idea or experience into a larger structure defined by logic." - An INTP Profile (intp.org) "INTPs live in the world of theoretical possibilities. They see everything in terms of how it could be improved, or what it could be turned into. They live primarily inside their own minds, having the ability to analyze difficult problems, identify patterns, and come up with logical explanations. They seek clarity in everything, and are therefore driven to build knowledge. They are the "absent-minded professors", who highly value intelligence and the ability to apply logic to theories to find solutions." - Portrait of an INTP (The Personality Page)

"The Architects' distant goal is always to rearrange the environment somehow, to shape, to construct, to devise, whether it be buildings, institutions, enterprises, or theories. They look upon the world -- natural and civil -- as little more than raw material to be reshaped according to their design..." - The Portrait of the Architect Rational (iNTp) (Keirsey) "INTPs contribute a logical, system-building approach to their work. They like being the architect of a plan, because of the scheming and thinking involved, far more than being the implementer of that plan. Implementation tends to be drudgery. They are content to sit back and think about what might work, given their view of the situation. INTPs may ignore standard operating procedures. The hours that they spend are not what is important to them, but rather the completion of their thought process" - INTP - The Wizard (Lifexplore) "likes solitude, not revealing, unemotional, rule breaker, avoidant, familiar with the darkside, skeptical, acts without consulting others" - Jung Type Descriptions (INTP) (similarminds.com)

well, something unusual happened today..

ganito yun, nananahimik ako na pinipilit intindihin yung tanong ni sir Dulds, staring blankly at thet PPT presentation when he suddenly pointed at me and said "ikaw." then added, "ano nga ba ulit pangalan mo"? haha.. nabigla ako nun.. he wanted me to answer it on the board. nkakabigla lang talaga. tumayo naman daw ako at sinagutan ko, kahit na super pinagdududahan ko yung sagot ko tumayo pa din ako at kinuha yung whiteboard marker sa kanya. I just Can't say no. well technically, I can--It's not like He's gonna skin me alive if i shook my head and told him the truth,"di ko po cgurado sagot ko." It just felt like I have to stand up and try. even bear the humiliation if i have to, I just can't say no to him. mdjo tama naman yung sagot ko*whew*. nkakalito naman kasi, yung tipong pagnakita mo sya sa exam bka lagpasan ko muna sya at titigan ko muna xa ng mdjo matagal bgo ko isulat yung "hunch" ko. nagakataon din kasi na di ko alam nun yung default input type sa forms, ngayon alam ko na.

I admire Sir Dulds, yep terror teacher xa, probably pinakasikat na faculty member ng UPLB next to Chancy. The only thing I fear lalo na nung CMSC22 days ko pa eh bka Ibagsak nya ko, mdjo subjective din kasi naman talaga dapat ang pag grade sa programming projects and due to my lack of laptop or PC during those days npka average lang ng programming skills ko--bka nga below average pa.

ayun, during those times din, napadalas yung pag consult ko sa kanya. okay naman xa in General. I've learned na:
1.dapat pakinggan mo maigi ang mga sagot ni Sir Dulds sa tanong mo, pag may di ka maintindihan, tanungin mo ulit kahit magmukha kang walang alam, tawanan ka man nya eh sasagutin pa din naman nya ng matino yung tanong mo.

2.dapat as much as possible, nka lista na sa papel yung tanong mo. kasi laging may kailangan puntahan si sir dulds, lalo sa mga panahon ng Systemone. tsaka minsan, sa sobrang serious face na hinaharap nya sayo, feeling mo sinasayang mo na oras nya.

3.tao din pala talaga Si Sir Dulds. hehe. I mean, may sense of humor din xa. wish ko nga maging close xa someday. bihira nya nga lang ipakita yun satin na mga studyante nya. At loving din pala si Sir, I enjoy reading His Blogs..hehe.. I find it really fascinating. try nyo din!

yun, anyway.. madami pa yan, kaso nsa computer shop ako ngayon at naiwan ko yung laptop ko. bka magkano na nag bayaran ko, sayang naman! hehe

aun. so QED yung something unusual na nangyari about 2hrs ago eh yung tawagin ako ni Sir Dulds sa harap.. -well, nung highschool puro recite ako, nawala lahat yun nang maging college eh..hehe.. so Big deal yun. ^-^